when I stopped seeing patients....I think people were thinking it was some kind of choice...I think they were blaming me....I chose not to see my patients because I couldn't do it...I couldn't do it....I couldn't do it....people thought I didn't want to....no..no...I wanted to....I couldn't...it was a breakdown...I could drive a truck but I couldn't see my patients....

I didn't choose to breakdown...I was mentally ill...I think that's what it was...but my family did not understand...I didn't understand....what an awful guilt trip....I cried and cried and wanted to die...