ok dont mind me i just really needed to get this out no one even has to respond i feel really really really good like everything is amazing and i am actually magical and it is amazing and the good spirits are back and i have been singing and dancing all day today and yesterday and the day before and ahh i feel sooooooooo good and i feel like i can do anything and everything is so fun and i just want to keep talking and there is so much to do and i feel amazing!!!!!!!