[Please forgive me for any mistake in my english... i'm not a native speaker and still learning to improve it]

Hi there,

I've being struggle against depressione for about twelve years now (i'm 28). I'm a really insecure person and i feel really akward around people, and i always have this kind of feeling that people have kibd of right to be disrespecful to me because I didn't achieve any goal in my life. I failed at studies (i dropped out from university in 2009), i've never really known what to do with my life, not because i don't have any interest, but mainly because of my insecurities. I've been worked as ad adminstrative secretary for the last 6 year (i was depressed and had social phobia so i didn't had the courage to go back to university and improve my life... also because i didn't know which career to pursue... this make me feel so ashemful) but i'm currently unemployed. And because of this situation, I don't have the courage to date guys anymore (i'm also quite ugly and look like a teen). I feel gross, undesirable, unlovable.

Sorry, I just wanted to write this down even if it's so pathetic. I know I have to shut up to work myself out but i feel lost