Is the CBT therapy just going to teach me to accept my h for the ways he is good, and forgive how he didn't/doesn't truly love me?

The t will say what I just said about him not loving me is faulty thinking. But here's my thoughts about that truth: How can someone who truly loves and cares about you cause you so much pain to where you are hysterical crying and continue to do it? That can't be love.

I know it stems back to my mother's abusive treatment the same way toward me since as far back as I can remember. She screamed and verbally abused me to the point of me being hysterical and then said I deserved it.

But the CBT t won't let me discuss past at all. Only present.

No matter how I explained how I need to be treated to my h, he just can't/won't.