I have really bad social anxiety, and am constantly afraid that I annoy people. Even though I try to tell myself otherwise, I just really struggle with it. The thing is, a lot of the time it's for absolutely no reason - a friend might take too long to answer a text message, so my mind goes into overdrive about why this may have happened, or I'll constantly analyse conversations and text messages and draw all these ridiculous conclusions.

When I was in high school, I got bullied a lot by my group of 'friends.' That affected me a lot, and even if a conversation/meet up with friend goes well, I'll keep saying to myself, 'well, your group in school found you annoying, how can this person have such a different view...' Or I'll have a really good conversation with someone, we'll be joking around, having a really good time, and later I'll start thinking. This is basically what will be going through my mind:

'they probably found you really annoying, but were hiding it to be nice'
'yeah but there were heaps of occasions when they approached you first'
'yeah but they probably just felt like they were being rude if they didn't say
anything'

And then even though I know I'm being ridiculous, I'll start thinking these things over and over, and I'll start to actually believe them even though I KNOW it makes no sense. I just hate feeling this way, because it really ruins some of my relationships. I hide it pretty well from other people, but it affects how I perceive my relationships with them - like one of my best friends, who I'm pretty sure genuinely likes hanging with me. We have great interactions, she asks me to
hang out with her heaps of times - but then I start coming up with all this ridiculous reasoning for why she might want to hang out with me, and even though I KNOW it's crazy, it's hard to get those thoughts out of my head. I keep trying to work through this, but even when I try to block these thoughts/feelings, it just stays on my mind until I go through them.