I'm sitting here online listening to my new CD waiting for the electricity to be shut off. My son is eating stale bread sticks asking me how long are they good for. I want to take to my bed and not come out. But that's not good enough. I'm too awake. He asked to go out somewhere but we have no money so where would we go? Our friend Ken is out at his sister's house as its Tuesday. I don't know when he'd be back. Why couldn't I publish my blog- see below: I changed the layout a bit; looks cool! I'd either sit here and post all evening or go out with my son. I just feel like singing sad songs. I've been listening to people sing sad songs to me. Wellbutrin isn't working but maybe it is? I feel down and hallucinating at the same time? Can you hallucinate with the depression- not just mania? I wish I could write music. That would be a great thing to do the way I feel today! OMG that would just be GREAT!!!

Maybe I'm in a Mixed episode.