I think you and I have talked about your husband before and you denied he had any traits of a PD so I backed off.

If you want some help with that now, PM me and I can give you some resources.

Yes, it is pwPD that is giving me a problem today, most of that stuff is the internalized "critical parent" or nightmares about my ex, however there is one pwPD in my life that I am still in contact with on a regular basis, other then my child, which doesn't count as her personality is not quite set yet, but almost.

I guess it was obvious, the connection between being a non and having C-PTSD.

My title was snarky, I probably shouldn't have wrote it. I administer a page for people with PTSD and I found myself getting triggered helping others because nobody ever helped me. That's the only reason I posted this.

I also recognize I'm being irrational because I'm using words like "nobody" so maybe I should stop using that. I can say that the people who were supposed to care about me: parents, husband, did not help me. I kind of relive the same thing when I go to a parents Al-Anon meeting: my parents didn't care about me. My dad used to tell me to smoke a joint when I was exhibiting emotional sensitivity.

I know that by helping others I get better so I'm not going to throw in the towel, but/and it helps. (I know I'm not supposed to say but from DBT but sometimes, see, I get sick of it, just like I know I'm not supposed to say nobody but, see, sometimes I get so sick and tired of having to control myself, be the well one, be the healthy one, keep it all together. Sometimes I wish I could just let it fall all apart, but I don't because I've got me and my daughter to take care of.)