Thank you! I do write a fair bit, but I don't think it's what I need for this. This kind of anger would just have me fill up pages and pages of nothing but "I'M ANGRY" and "F___ THIS" and maybe just break open the ink pen and smear the ink all over the pages so it's illegible and all over my hands. This anger is so deep that words just can't express well enough to help. I need something more physical to match how ugly and horrible it is.