Thank you, again, and you have a good point. With nearly anything else I would agree with you very much. But at the same time, I just...I don't WANT to be constructive? I don't want to build. I want to destroy. Alzheimer's is destructive and ugly, what I went through was destructive and ugly, and I want an outlet that can let me get those rage-feelings out in an equally powerful (but still not dangerous or harmful) way.

Hammering nails just isn't going to do it. I think I'd just end up frustrated. It's not expressive enough. It would be a good distraction, on the other hand, but not a release. Not for this.

But I might get involved with them anyway, I know the local Habitat director. They're very slow and only build one house every year or so and I don't know if they're at the construction phase right now or not. I do volunteer work with another group right now but my term on the board is ending this December so I'll have some free time to dedicate to it.