Hi Shellbe,
Welcome to PC! You will find lots of wisdom here.

I totally understand what you're saying. I don't know how long it has been since your mom's death, but you may want to consider some grief counseling. It really is specialized.

That being said, my mom has been gone for 5 years and it hasn't gotten any easier for me. I miss her terribly. I will still sometimes just start crying at the thought of her. She was the only person in the world, ever, who loved me unconditionally.

My heart goes out to you.
Take care,
Okie