Who said you were weak? I just think leaving is the better and healthier option. You really have to put yourself first and foremost when dealing with psychological issues.

Also, pain and suffering on ANY terms is COMPLETELY unacceptable. To me, you're making a lot of excuses to not confront the issue head on. You're trying to skirt around it and not deal with it at all. It's the elephant in the room and your just letting it stay there, breaking your heart and slowly destroying you.