Thanks for your support and yes it was horrible. All it did for me was to keep my thoughts and suicidal feelings to myself as it is going to be hard to trust anyone in that field again. I really do need all of your support now as I now you must also need mine. At this time I will try my best to answer you as best as I can. As I said I think my hypomania is back again and I might be more needy than at other times. Thanks again