There are therapists who can talk to you over e-mail. I am currently talking over e-mail to someone just because of where I live. I'm not a doctor, but have they ruled out Post Traumatic Stress, from what I've heard some of the stuff you are talking about could fall under that.

Also, sometimes ADD can cause short term memory loss -- so see if the aderall can help that at all.

Importantly, don't be ashamed of ADD or depression or anything else. It's not your fault. You didn't cause it. It's a hormonal imbalance and should be talked about just like anything physical a doctor might treat.

Good luck!