When I was in a psychosis I was thinking every organization, business, company etc had ppl in it from an organization I was abused in drugging and raping ppl. I was terrified of the hospital. But I trusted my family. My mind was completely gone. I could not get it to stop racing with just horrid, horrible thoughts of the abuse I went through. Luckily the pdoc I saw in the hospital was really handsome and kind. Gave me zyprexa right away. I had 2 of my sisters with me so I felt safe. I hadn't slept or eaten for 5 days. I was exhausted.

Not trying to sound mean but if it's bad enough imo you'll go. I hope you do. You'll be safe.