You have to take care of yourself and not worry about what other people think. Your mom may not be the best judge because she may need to protect herself from how ill you are right now. This is up to you. It is your health. You are having psychotic features and many other symptoms. You need treatment, intensive treatment, to stop them. That's true no matter what anyone says.

I was in the hospital for Christmas a few years ago. My mom was mad at me for messing everything up and later when my therapist had her come into a session to hear about how suicidal I had been she was upset at that and told me flat-out that I was not suicidal. Yet that hospital stay saved my life and I was dangerously suicidal for a long time.

This has to be up to you and you alone. We can give you things to consider but the decision comes to you. But if you wait you'll just get sicker. I've been there and it was awful.