I feel just as you do and see things in an extremely similar way. I blurted out I had Bipolar on a Facebook forum thing I belonged to and right after that everything got extremely weird....I think I started to hallucinate from the anxiety of saying it....or I might have been manic and that's why I said it and why I hallucinated.

I've decided not to share unless I REALLY know the person, but I understand exactly what you mean about feeling unauthentic. Who knows....maybe you will meet someone and instantly click and feel comfortable sharing and it all works perfectly. That is what I'm hoping will happen with me as far as making friends. Might be wishful thinking but a girl can hope....hope never hurt nobody

I'm sorry you struggle with this.