Having a panic attack about the election and the Trump fanatical, frenzied people. Really can hardly contain my feelings of safety - they are so violent and aggressive. I am so worried that woman will be abused after he loses, and that riots and fighting will break out. It is causing a psychotic break, where I think I am directly responsible for not creating enough love in the world, and we need Michael Jackson and Woodstock, and Heal the World kind of movement to fight it. I am so scared, and no holding will help. It is hard to be connected to any moment except this one where I see doom and the road to armageddon being paved by christian beliefs ruling our government. I am not calling the crisis line because it isn't life or death, and it is near 2am - that would be rude. I took a prn, but am feeling a hairs breath away from a delusion brought on from this extreme fear.