Remember to breath, that is the important one......headed for a full blown panic, and nothing I can do is lessening it much.....I can't ground myself...........I hate change....I hate trusting people......they always hurt me in the end........my T emailed me tonight and said he talked with the T I am seeing tomorrow, and touched base just alittle with her.........I told him I don't know if I can go through with this......seeing someone else.....feel like your abandoning me and pushing me away........nobody can help me........he said he is trying to find me help.......I need help.....and this route he thought would be easier on me then the hospital.....and he says I am not making good desicions.......I am scared....