Well, let's see... I've lost pretty much all of my friends, as in the friends I hung out with. People still talk to me at school, but they don't really matter to me.

I'm failing school, for the last 6 years I've just been getting by. This is my last year in high school and my only motivation to get up and go in the morning is my parents who I don't want to disappoint, but I already have. They had high hopes for me as did I, but that all went away. Now they just want me to get my grade 12.

I've been using drugs for the last 2 years... mostly just pot, but I've tried other stuff as well. My mom has caught me on several occasions, and even once told me that if I smoke in the house I'm getting kicked out... I kept doing it and she never kicked me out, but I did promise to stop. Except the very next day at school I smoked a joint with 2 other guys. I'd probably still smoke in the house (outside) too if I had money or weed.

I don't know what's wrong with me. I had everything I could have possibly asked for, but it's my personality to prevent people from getting close to me, and actually hating me in the end. (I just recently lost my best friend too because of a combination of drifting apart and pissing each other off, and I don't really want to mend things either.)

Oh, and I applied to a bunch of places to try to get a job, and it's been 3 weeks now and no one has even called me.