It feels like I am the only one.

I know my sister had post-partum depression after her twins were born in 2001. I don't know if she was medicated or not; she may have been, because we had the same OB/GYN and I had a baby in 2001 too and was given Zoloft during and after my pregnancy. That's when the Andrea Yeats story was happening . So, our doctor was especially vigilent about post partum depression. I was not diagnosed with bipolar until 2006.

My dad is an alcoholic and has been since time out of mind. He is 69 now and I remember back to the mid- to late 80's when he was drinking. My aunt (his sister) is anorexic and bulemic.

I'm convinced that my mom has something, but goes undiagnosed. My guess is that she has some sort of personality disorder, but she never will get diagnosed, so that's that.

On my ex-husband's side, his first cousin (our age) has schizophrenia. I remember him being heavily drugged one year at our family vacation house. He was very ill. I'll skip the details as they would be very triggering. I only include it here because they would affect my kids.

There may be others who take anti-depressants that I don't know anything about, or maybe even bipolar. I can't be the only one.