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If I am not mistaken, this is something you have mentioned getting therapy for and you feel that has helped you understand yourself better and you are functioning better now. And you have shared this even in this thread:
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Yes I finished that treatment over a year ago, and no, I never said "I feel that it has helped me understand myself better and I am functioning better now". I never ever said that. You must be thinking about my PTSD.
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Please know leomama, I am not diagnosing you. And I have not been intensely studying you in that I am following everything you have posted. What caught my attention is the title of your thread as I can relate to feeling that others did not care about me and imagining what it would be like for me if they did care as I had needed and badly.
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It wouldn't matter if you did. And I'm not paranoid, so I'm not sure why you mentioned intensely studying me. The title of my thread was snarky, and I should not have titled as such. I actually don't care if others care about me.
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Well, in my input/post my contribution was recognizing that you are most definitely putting a lot of effort into "trying". I have done that myself and can relate, however, my history is different than yours so in that my input will be based on whatever I have learned. Anyone who will read your blog will do that and will only absorb what you are saying in a way they can relate according to their history of challenges and where ever they happen to be in their own healing process. The past two weeks alone for me has been so full of challenges that I am simply not focused completely on you leomama, and my input is based on what I have had a chance to read of you as well as the topic you are talking about in how it relates to my own challenges.
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Putting a lot of effort into trying. Hmm.
My blog?
I think again I misrepresented myself.
I've been asked to write an article for an organization I volunteer for.
It wouldn't be a personal blog.
It wouldn't be about my challenges.
It would be about being the daughter of a man with narcissistic traits.
I can see I made a mistake by posting here. I thought the C-PTSD forum was safe but now I can see that even that is not safe for me.
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This is something that I can most definitely relate to myself. Individuals that have failed me in some capacity like to blame "their" failures on the fact that I struggle with PTSD. Sadly, it has become a go to excuse for others that don't want to put any effort into recognizing their own short comings.
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Again, I was not specific here as it has to do with a specific relationship. It has nothing to do with me and it has everything to do with the other person.
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For example, my husband exhibits behavior patterns that have long been hard for me to deal with. He tends to blame me when he has misplaced things, I must have moved whatever it is he has misplaced. One day my husband got for free a couple of chocolate sheet cakes because they were in a shipment in a big truck that got into an accident and the entire truck landed on it's side and in my state when that happens all of the food contents of a truck that experiences that are condemed to be thown away, even if the food is salvageable. So, I asked if it was ok to open this sheet cake to eat some. He came over and proceeded to pull away the plastic cover and when the top of the cake was sticking to the cake pulling some of the top off of the cake he said, "Look what YOU DID, the top is coming off the cake". I did NOTHING to cause that to happen, but he chose to blame me. If I get angry he gets angry and blames it on "my PTSD". Do you think that is fair?????
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I am sorry you experienced that. My ex husband has untreated bipolar disorder, untreated substance abuse and undiagnosed sociopathic and narcissistic traits.
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Oh, believe me, I could go on and on about how I experience that challenge where others have treated me badly, don't want to acknowledge their problem but instead prefer to use the PTSD as the problem. Honestly, when there are others in one's life that are dysfunctional, it's harder when one struggles with PTSD because that can most definitely become just another stick dysfunctional people tend to use that only adds to the challenge.
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Hmm, that's interesting. Why don't you write a post about that?