After 6 months completely med free, I made the difficult decision today to get on a small dose of Prozac again. After going through diets, supplements, meditation etc I've found that the roots of BPD need so much more care than those things could give.
Not that they didn't help some, but my insecurity, constant lashing out at BF for perceived threats of abandonment or questioning his loyalty (he's always been loyal faithful and we just got married- never given me a reason to not trust him), and anxious or fear themed thoughts that won't shut off- we both decided I have to do something. I don't know about the rest of you, but my BPD makes it nearly impossible for me to make friends too.
So add the isolation and loneliness to everything else and lately I've been breaking down.
My therapy starts Monday and I'm scared and embarrassed to talk about someone of the crazy delusions I've had
Anyone here tried meds or therapy or both and had any success, esp with the insecurity and abandonment issues?
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~ how faint is the heartbeat that constantly craves..never satisfied..hungry..racing thoughts..waiting for the storm after the calm~ ME
Diagnosis: BPD 2 with mixed states, Cyclothymia, GAD, Trichotillomania and Skin picking disorder, some OCD tendencies
Meds: Abilify 30mg ,Lithium 600 per day, gabapentin 600mg, Zoloft 100 mg, remeron 7.5mg
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