I really don't know where to put this at but the pdocs have told me I'm bipolar so I'll start here , It 's funny but I am a real mystery to myself , I have always been good at understanding things about others but with myself not so much I've thought about this for a very long time and I'm wondering that if maybe because I grew up in an environment that made it necessary for me to be very aware of what some other people were feeling that I never developed actual feelings of my own but I dont know I may be way off just wondering if I am on the right track or not to understanding this pdocs dont seem to understand me either and i have been going to them for a very long time , It looks to me as if they believe me to be an addict even after many many many drug tests but I guess I could be wrong on that