Thank you, notdeadyet! And I'm sorry for what you went through. I like your suggestions!

Last night I seized on the idea of using angry art and just completely destroying a sketchbook with angry painful memories, and I went and got a couple sketchbooks and some supplies to pour my heart out with on the page. I filled two pages with two of the worst memories and cried the whole time, in private. I think I used up an entire sharpie marker and a whole lot of watercolors.

It felt very good to take my anger out with color and by taking scissors to the paper and cutting the pages into jagged edges. And I take comfort in looking at the book and knowing that when I'm done, I'm going to burn it and it will be gone.