How do/did you find what is that you are passionate about?

I'm trying to find my passion in life. Something that will make me wake up in the morning without setting the alarm. But no. My life is just surviving. I'm passionate about nothing, and nothing motivates me to wake up in the morning; not money, not love, not traveling, not parties ... nothing.

I might have developed depression because of my social isolation because of my shyness/social anxiety/sensitivity, but now I cannot get out of this prison. I said I cannot because I have no energy to read, go out, or do anything that could potentially change my mind and as a result my life.

Sometimes I try to pretend to be passionate about something hoping to become genuinely passionate about it, but to no avail.

No therapy suggestions please. The idea of paying someone to listen to me "professionally" isn't something pleasant to me.

I'll repeat my question: How do/did you find what is that you are passionate about, and makes you wake up in the morning? and could you ever find your passion in the depth of your despair?