I'm not suicidal and I don't think I'm a danger to others. But I haven't slept in days, have barely eaten this week, and just feel out of control.

The last time I went to the ER, they said I had too many meds and I had to go see my process the next day. No assessment or anything.

I talked to my new therapist last night and it sounds like she is going to see if she can find a place for me. My process doesn't do anything. I have called him at least every week for the last 6 months and all he does is switch things up. And he changes the meds based on what I tell him to do. He will also tell me to not drink caffeine and to turn off electronics at 9pm. Kinda hard for someone being really obsessive about everything.

I guess I haven't done a very good job being a doctor, huh? I'm just ready to feel normal.