I don't have a doctor, or insurance, unfortunately. I'm going to a drop-in behavioral health clinic this time and taking a family member as backup. She used to work in the mental health field and can tell me if the doctor is good or if I need to run. I have problems trusting my intuition and I really thought it was my fault for being treated so badly by my psychiatrist. Having someone there to help me tell the difference between "firm" and "complete jerk" makes me feel safer, slightly.

It doesn't really change how I feel about doctors in general, I have been afraid of them since I was a child and unfortunately this experience added to that fear, but it does give me a little hope that not every psychiatrist is going to be horrible like mine was.