I've sunk into pretty deep depression since what may have been a mixed episode last Saturday night when I wrecked a bunch of stuff in the house... hardly any memory of it. I was by myself thank the gods. My wife is having a very hard time dealing with her father's death a few months ago... and our 6 year old daughter is going through fits of rage way outside the norm. I know my wife is thinking it might be a genetic legacy from me (my Dad is just like me). Anyway.. she can't help me right now due to her own grief and sense of being overwhelmed.... and I know I'm making things a billion times worse. So I'm thinking I need to get out of her life one way or the other. I feel like going into the wilderness and getting lost. I know I should call my psych... but I don't want to be committed. I just want to talk this through and give my friends and relatives a break. I don't want to put my friends through anything.. since I flooded them with crazy texts last saturday night. I also don't want to ruin an amazing trip we have planned in two weeks.