thank you for your comment. i was dx at 32 years old as bp2, generalized anxiety and ocd. after finally been honest with my pdoc i was redx with bp1 with psychotic features ( hearing voices. kind of sounds like a bad horror flick!!! this sounds even more scary, my job, is a school bus driver!!! But I have been doing it so long it is just part of my routine and really the only time i tend to block out everything but driving i feel ALMOST human during those 2 hours per day. Up until last episode(where it was so severe for me) did my husband finally realize i actually had an illness that i could not control.he just thought i had mood swings that we all had to adjust to.since he finally saw a glimps of what i have been going through he has been very supportive,understanding and generally concerned, which helps a little. i have now realized that i have dealt/hidden the fact that i needed help for atleast 12 years,but it just couldnt be hidden any longer it got worse.the dx was a year ago, iam now 33 and what ayear. I have never been hospitalized but is has been close. for you, I hope someone turns your light on,if mine comes on first i will run an extention cord to you!!!!good luck,keep in touch and if you want to pm me at any time feel free to---Jen