Thanks everyone for your responses.

I agree I need to address my depression, but I was thinking that may be if I find something at least interesting, my depression/inactivity would be alleviated.

From my childhood, I was steered and wouldn't be allowed to pursue my passion or discover it. Parents want their children to be "successful" financially, which I think is a huge mistake parents make to their children, because if they aren't passionate about what they do, they won't be successful, but average at best.

Now I'm trying to discover my passion. For my job I think it's a bit too late, but I need something interesting that keeps me going and making me active, energetic, and vital. I feel like I'm a walking dead. I haven't been outstanding in my study, jobs, or social relationships. I feel my life has no meaning other than to walk the road of every one else: study, work, get married, have children, raise them and then die. I don't want my life to be like this, void of subjective meaning.

Meds and therapy are out of question for me. I know I may sound stubborn about this, but I tried therapy once and I felt worse.