Here we go again. I can't get motivated. I don't want to leave my bed. My house is trashed. This is usually my story from Nov (when my mom died) to spring. It has gotten very bad in the past. Last year I didn't leave my room for months and family had to intervene and help me clean my house. It was so embarrassing. I look like crap. I rarely care to shower because duh that involves physical movements and when I'm like this, I just want to lay there, perfectly still, eyes closed. I'll do this all day everyday.

And I can't take ADs. They all have side effects from mania to sexual and lets be honest, I rather be depressed than unable to be intimate lol. I tried APs for depression like seroquel to latuda and it doesn't help. I'm a lost cause. Maybe if I increase my geodon? I'll talk to pdoc in about two weeks. Hoping I can hold on till then.