I could do things if I felt up to it. I mean like I have a lot to be done. I just can't get up to it. Everything turns mediocre to me and I lose interest. I'm known to start projects and dump them because I run into an episode where I can't get motivated. I'll try and ride this out. I'm not thinking of harming or anything so at least that's good. I feel like a ball of anxiety and exhaustion and one feeds the other. God why can't I just be friggin normal?!