so how can I just move on? I am traumatised, abandoned, my attachment figure has turned against me and is stone walling me, I had an attachment figure that I trusted and grew to love and respect and he has just decided to walk out leaving me with no therapy...

Six bloody years I worked with him, twice a bloody week! I poured my heart and soul into that relationship, working hard and never missing one appointment. I trusted him. I trusted him when he promised over and over again to never abruptly bail out on me. I trusted him when he said he knew that would undo most of the work we had done, I trusted him when he said he would make sure the ending was gradually and would not suddenly drop me. I trusted him. I believed his promises to me. Promises that are on record, as I record all sessions. And he decides to do what will hurt me the most...

I am brought to my knees by the cruelty of this. And please don't tell me this man did not mean to be cruel. He did. He knows the impact of these things on me. He listened to me sob and explain the anguish of it year in and year out. He knows how this will wound me. And he still did it in the most cruel way. He could have mitigated it. In so many ways. but he choose not to. He CHOOSE not to.