Not really. Like, I still think that I'm doomed for eternity but it's like the weight of that is lighter, you know. It's weird, it's like I don't care that I want to die and I think it's just a good idea. It sucks when I'm like this because I have a really hard time fighting my impulsiveness.

Maybe I should take an Adderall to calm it down a bit. I don't know.