"I've tried so many. I just don't trust people." --No worries, it's OK to give up on it for a while but I hope you try again later. I think that the right T can help. But maybe your mind just needs to take a break from worrying about getting well for a while. You have a lot of anxiety like I do. Some things just can't be fixed or changed. And some things are not our responsibility. We don't have to be useful or perfect all the time though it is important to be kind. It would be hard to convince me that you are not kind.