Through my entire adult life, and I'm sure others have too, I've only been good enough to help women. I don't see myself as perfect, but I consider myself a good person. I see so many women saying "where are the kind, honest, respectful, and responsible guys at?" This puzzles me because I have those qualities and then some.
It has become inherently obvious that my looks and the fact I cannot work anymore are the real reasons why I'm a tool to women and not relationship material. I'm not saying all women are bad, I'm just referring to the ones I encounter.
I know my looks are slightly below average and that's okay. I've worked 23 out of the 42 years I've been alive. To me, disabled doesn't mean lazy, dependent or a mooch. It just means hindered. I don't look for support in any way. I am independent, strong willed and do everything myself.
It is pretty sad to know first hand how much selfish people use a selfless person so much, in both genders.
I think perhaps it would be best to stay to myself. The hurt would stop and I've been used to being alone for so long. We as hurt people can change ourselves for the better. However, it doesn't help when other people get worse. It kind of feels like bein a big hearted fish swimming in an ocean of hungry sharks. The bad part is, this fish is growing so tired inside from trying just to survive each day, wondering when the time will come when he cam stop swimming and finally discover peace. I will never quit swimming, I only long for my time of swimming to be done.