You are very lucky you have such a wonderful spouse! Also, you seem to have built a very solid reputation on PC as a kind and loving person. I have read and enjoyed your many wise and thoughtful posts. I think I may have read the post you are referring to. I felt something was off and trusted moderators would help. No worries. I have definitely gone off myself. The moderators are always kind and gently suggest I take a break from PC when it seems I am being too triggered. In my mind this is what makes Psych Central a "safe haven" and I hope it will be yours forever. Moderators are gentle and wise, and it seems it would take a lot for someone to be permanently banned. I think you have a lot of supporters, and I am one of them.