I won't give any advice. You give out so many supportive hugs that I know you have read it all. But you are amongst the sweetest, most supportive posters at PC. You are really a special person. What I have gathered about your situation is that you need someone special in your life. You are in my thoughts. Many people at PC lack supportive people in their lives--wouldn't it be dreamy if we weren't all so far apart from each other. You are in my thoughts....