I spent two days wishing my T I'd seen 9 years earlier would somehow know I was in trouble and call me and make an appointment :-) Then when I finally went and found her phone number (we'd both moved in that time) and called her and made an appointment, she was going away and we had to wait another couple weeks before we could meet again. It's very hard having to do all the work of getting ourselves help and making sure we stay okay, etc.