You've sure had a lot of *** holes in your life I've been called "useless" and even "ugly" (or this was implied) during a time when I was struggling with a health issue which impacted my appearance. So I get some of this... I did eventually meet a very kind, intelligent and caring person IRL (papa bear) who has never insulted me... I would be honoured to be here for you if you ever want to pm...(private message me) .. In any case, I'll look out for your posts (and a belated welcome )

(PS I also have found too many people have no conception of what L... Means ... But those of us who do get it are the true Warriors and Survivors )