Hello GreenerGrass100: I'm sorry you have encountered this difficulty. As gayleggg mentioned, seeking the services of a mental health therapist, or possibly a psychiatrist, is probably the appropriate way for you to approach this. It is going to be important for you to address what is going on with you. As you already know, it does become increasingly wearing to keep having to keep picking yourself up from the kinds of struggles you are facing.

Since this is your first post, here on PC, welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!