I am in almost unbearable pain... and it has been pointed out to me that my pain is causing all of you terrible pain..

I did do everything that was requested of me.. I put a trigger icon on... put a triggering.. in the body..

I don't know what more I could have done to protect you all..

So there you have it... folks.. IRL... no one wants to hear my "uglies"..

I thought that you would be happy for me that I have made progress..

It has come at extreme expense to me.. I see a T 2 times a week.. a pdoc once a month.. and a body work specialist every week... lets say.. I have no money left...and my body and soul hurt..

I love you all... I will keep my "uglies" to myself..

And this forum.. can go back.. to whatever it was...

My T... answered my call back... because I was so very upset by all that went on in this forum... and he will see me first thing in the morning.. Yazza.. 3 times this week...