About a year ago, a psychiatrist who had seen me just once or twice (I can hardley remember,) discharged me from the psych clinic and said my regular doctor (of 5 years) could manage ordering my psych meds. Not much of a challenge, since I just take one psych med in a modest dose. Now my regular doctor has transferred out of doing primary care, and I've been assigned to a Physician's Assistant as my primary provider. This person hasn't arrived yet to the clinic where I go. So I have yet to meet this person. I forget if it's a male or a female.

I feel discarded.

My physical health isn't as problem-free as it had been most if my life. Recently, I got treated for a bleeding ulcer. That issue may prove somewhat chronic, according to one GI doc. And I've gotten quite depressed lately, after having done pretty well emotionally for a good extended interval.

Only one psych med ever helped me. I upped the dose on my own, but had to stop that when I developed a cough from it. (That has happened before, due to drying out my throat . . . and I think it dries my trachea. I cough up crud from it.)

A few weeks ago, I went to the emergency room with severe intestinal pain. (I've got some chronic issues with that.) After waiting there a few hours without seeing a doctor, I just decided to go home. The problem went away.

Between the mental and the physical, this is the most health concerns I've ever had.

And I don't even have a doctor (that I have even met.) Or I guess I should say "provider." I'm not even deemed as needing a doctor assigned to me.

I feel like I'll never trust a doctor/provider again.