I think that the transference I'm feeling now, or that I described in my post, is more like that of parent/child.

Of course, I also deal with "the transference that must not be named," but I'm too afraid to speak about it now.

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I'm sure your therapist also cares about what happens to you, but after all we are just their patients and they have to keep it that way.

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This is exactly the harsh reality from which I am trying to escape. I want him to be around, to be a friend to me and my family, but know that this will never be. The pain in accepting this fact approaches infinite (I was taught in therapy not to say that the pain is unbearable, and I didn't).

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my relationship with my husband is very cold and we don't communicate at all. He doesn't understand anything about me.

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I'm really sorry to hear that! I wish you well and hope that you are able to overcome this problem.

Take care