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Hi guys!
I'm new to the ED scene and thought I'd post here. I used to be a binge eater, but lately it's become more of a bulimic subtype. I saw my psychiatrist and got diagnosed. I saw the binge eating as a problem, but I didn't think about compensating for it until I heard a song. It spiraled out of control after that. Now I'm counting calories and weighing myself constantly. I'm exercising excessively, and purging if I don't think I can work off a meal. This morning I ate a cupcake at work and had the urge to purge. I even started coughing like I normally do. If other people hadn't been in the break room I think I would have gone through with it. I never realized how disgusting I was until I saw the calories on the things I loved to eat. No wonder I'm so fat. A lot of girls who are bulimic think they're fat when they're really not, but that's not true for me. My BMI is 29.4! That's almost obese! Every time I went to my doctor's office I dreaded getting on that scale because I knew the numbers would be bad. But I never did anything to change it. Not until now. But I still have to ask myself... was changing to this really worth it?
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"It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone." -Rose Kennedy
Bipolar II
Binge Eating Disorder
Narcissistic Personality Disorder
Histrionic Personality Disorder
Antisocial Personality Disorder
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Seroquel 500
Depakote 250 mg
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