62 two years of marriage is amazing. You know I am very talkative about everything but I constantly find myself unable to express in therapy the "dance" that goes on between H and I. I think that couples slowly start changing each other for better and worse. And some of it is on an unconcious level. I am sorry about the negative emotions. Negative emotions make us sick. Some of my feelings toward my spouse did contribute to my attempt. So I really do understand. I am lucky that I have been able to make a little bit more sense of it all plus I am no longer angry because of the help I have gotten in therapy. But if he is having a bad day than so am I and vice versa. Thank goodness we have more good days now. Little Turtle, I truly hope you can become less angry, keep trying. I know it isn't easy and we can't change others. Don't ever blame yourself because of what another person feels about you. You are a good person!!