So sorry for your sadness. I'm sad today too. I haven't felt sad for a while because my depression got so bad, I decided to give Ketamine treatments a try, after much research. I have been taking treatments occasionally for the past 2 months. They have removed my depression and suicidal idealizations that I'd have for over 10 years (even on meds and weekly psychological sessions). But it's been almost 3 weeks since my last session and I cam feel the dark cloud of my severe depression closing in around me again, like an old friend. Thankfully, I have another session on Tuesday.

Enough about me. I don't know your situation, but I feel so sorry for the pain you're having. Hopefully, you can be proactive to ease your sorrow with positive ways to sooth your senses. If it's pretty outside, go out and sit for awhile and breathe in the fresh air, or even better take a short walk. That will change your mood, guaranteed. Or take a bubble bath, or watch a good tv show. Light some candles. Color. Read something to help your wisemind. Brush your dog or cat. Turn on some music and hum along. Chat with others who can relate and can help. You are not alone. And if you are truly 'alone' in your world right now, rely on friends like us to fill the need for companionship. We truly care. I do this because I am lonely too, and find great comfort in chatting with others who understand. I hope you feel better, Metalchick!! take care!! xoxox