(((((((((Pikku Myy))))))))) I'm so sorry. That must be very hard. Even if you are feeling robotic, blocking and dissociating, it is much to deal with. Business things can be a pain at the best of times, all the more so at times like these (which of course you already know, but I commiserate.) Please be gentle with yourself through this, ok?

Do you have a T? If so, do you have good access to them? Please post here as much as you find helpful, ok?

You are in my thoughts.