Thank you MostlyLurking, all your suggestions are welcome. I need as many options as possible to decide which is best for me. Right now I don't want to talk, but having the names and numbers of people who could help is a good idea. A reminder there is always somewhere to turn. I'm actually going to spend some time looking into that tonight.

I reached out for help and was pubished for my betrayal, for telling people our family business. The idea of asking for help is terrifying. Being here and sharing is my new first step. Talking about it means I can't keep it in anymore. I know my limitations and I'm reaching them. I just need to do it right this time.