I will not get into the details, as this is a non-religion forum. However the social groups felt austrasising on this matter and I felt I wouldn't get the response I'm looking for from them.

So, I have gotten burnt out by several communities and their practices. I have been raised with this spirituality and it is a big part of my personality.
Being quite open to spirituality it took time until I started to see certain practises harmful to those who were not indoctrinated. It was more of a drug to those who chose to take part than anything. I became sceptical towards the good of the community, started finding more and more flaws in the brainwashing indoctrination.

Now I'm in a position where prayer, worship, and spiritual discussion causes me great anxiety and irritability. I don't find the solace and comfort I once did. The anxiety is causing me to distance myself from the community I once loved, and I feel less connected to friends and family of the same faith. I love them so, aswell as the spiritual ground I've built my personality upon.

Has anybody been in a similar position? I would really like to work through this to once more find peace. Right now my one source of peace turns me into an anxious mess.

How do I recover from this?